German Menu for Dinner :)

A simple and special home-cooked dinner filled with love by my beloved 'self proclaimed' Master Chef - Stefan. Unfortunately I am the kitchen helper which was assigned to handle the potatoes only :(

the master chef's masterpiece - pan fried lamb with potatoes,eggs and bacon alongside mixed vege as side. 2 thumbs up!

Smiles from the chef himself :P

Stefan in action

Have I done it right this time?

I was trying to be honest, I told everything I had to, but ended up getting a different reaction. A chain reaction happened. They doubted me, I doubted in myself and him. How can we all be happy when we are all playing the game of doubt.

All I wanted was just to be honest and guilt free. I admit mistakes were done in my life but I have live to learn to deal with the consequences. After all, I am responsible for my own act. I hate the feeling of being accountable for somebody else. I rather prefer being held accountable for myself at least I do not face pressure of trying to be perfect to please myself.


They is a saying, if you made a mistake for the first time, it can be forgiven and forget, but when you do same mistake twice, you are a fool.

Or maybe some people just want to be a fool after all....

Once broken considered sold.

Trust is like the saying 'once broken considered sold'.

True enough, trust forms between parents and child, husband and wife, girlfriend and boyfriend, employer and employee even between patients and doctor.

Some trust are life and death matter, but mostly is loyalty.

Trust can come in an intangible form such as a marriage vow or maybe even a contract. Once breach, they will always be a consequences that one must face.

Therefore, always think twice before making that promise which is tagged along with trust.

My First AFL Match

I was once told that if you haven't watch an Australia Footy Match, you are considered to be in Australia before..

Yesterday I went for my very first Australian Footy Match with teams of Geelong playing against Carlton. I was told that Geelong was the champion for last year and it should be an exciting game. Honestly, the local supporters are really enthusiastic with all the banners, scarfs, caps, jersey and all. The spirit is definitely there.

Luckily I have my personal game info provider, I was able to understand the entire game play..

and I cheered for Geelong and they pawned Carlton since the start of the game.

Final game score: 121 for Geelong and 79 to Carlton.

I am definitely looking forward to the final playoffs in September.especially with warmer weather :)

Denmark Study Tour.

As I mentioned earlier, we had no choice but only Denmark as our only study tour destination so I didn't even give it a second thought of consideration.

After a while, the whole study tour idea resurface again because I wanted to do something different before I graduate for REAL as a student. So after months of consideration I guess it isn't that bad after all. Apart from the crazy cold weather we are going to face in January. I guess it should be loads of fun and it's going to be an exciting experience. I have always wanted to go to Norway. I think Denmark is pretty much similar to Norway in terms of climate and culture. After all it's like doing two electives within two weeks and an almost guarantee pass rate. Just that I definitely have to chip in some extra money to fund the whole study tour.

Besides that, I have my travel buddy with me, Carissa whom vowed to get a Chanel Bag if we ever step foot at London which is quite likely. She will definitely enjoy the shopping part but as for me I would love the chance to travel at UK or maybe Germany.

Now the most important part of the entire tour is to work out a budget and a serious family discussion. I'm keeping fingers crossed that the cost incurred will be minimal :X
But I am definitely looking forward to my visit to Europe in January...

Q & A

When you know the road of the choice you want to make is going to lead you to nothing in the end, will you still take it?

Can you pretend to love me a little more knowing that it's going to make me happy.
But Hush...! Don't let me know.

Words come out easy but definitely not the words from the deepest core of your heart.

It seems easy to remember the small little happy things that make me happy. But it seems harder to forget the small little details that will break my heart.

I am trying to make sense of your every word and act. Trying hard to resist but God knows how long I can hold myself from falling to you.

The Peanut Butter Affair

And it all begins as...

I choke back on my tears. Taste the salt slide down the back of my throat. Check myself in the mirror. Ugh. Turn around. Turn back hoping to see someone else. Pause. Feel the emptiness in the room. No one watching. Cross through to the kitchen. Open the pantry, look inside. Grab a jar of peanut butter. Unscrew the lid. Take a whiff. Stick my finger in the jar of peanut butter. Lick it off. Felt someone watching me. Shit. Turn around to face them. No one's there. Put the peanut butter away. Wash my hands. Careful to remove any traces of peanut butter. Reapply lipstick. Head to the door. To reality. Again.