fear

fear will come silently without notice at the most vulnerable moment - like an opportunist waiting desperately, like a vulture preying on it's dying victim.

fear will mutate into your worst nightmare and attack you from your mind, the weakest spot in a human being - consume you slowly like poison spreading through the veins in your body.

fear will inch you nearer to despair and hopelessness.

fear will use your past mistakes against you.

fear will feast on you and eat you alive.

take what you need and be on your way

"Good Night, Good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that I shall say good night till it be morrow."
Romeo and Juliet ( Quote Act II, Scene II).


Oh my love,

How I wish you could be my morning rising sun, lifting me gently from the grasp of yesterday, kissing me with warmth of your lips, whispering words of comfort to my ears.
I hate to say goodbye, but I'd like to keep your presence with me. Please give me hope that you and I both will meet again and never to be parted again. This could be a sweet misery that I will endure no matter how long it takes.

"O, swear not by the moon, the fickle moon, the inconstant moon, that monthly changes in her circle orb, Lest that thy love prove likewise variable." William Shakespeare quotes (English dramatist, playwright and poet, 1564-1616)

don't leave me speechless

Elaine's 3 Step Recipe to being Successful in Life

No 1: Know and Be Sure of What You Want
A ship can never reach its destination if the captain doesn't set the course right.
Whenever thinking of the future, one can be sure to feel uncertainties because of the probability of failure. But if you are able to focus your mind on the target and see yourself being at that position, it will surely give you courage to take a stride forward. Although at times it may seems so impossible, you will realise at the point where you are standing at now was once a glimpse of dream you had long long ago.

No 2: Be yourself
A sheep that is brave enough to jump over the fence will get greener grasses on the other side.
This is true. Everyone have the mentality that if everyone is doing something, then that something has to be the best and right thing. Let's say if it is, so what? It is what they do good in but not necessary what you do good in. I do best in what I am good in. So I follow what my mind, knowledge and interest. Some may call you stupid, dumb or profound but the stupidity is the stepping stone to something no one but only you who dare to take the first step to be different!

No 3: Optimism
Wise man are always right especially the older one. Always look at the cup as half full because in my opinion when I'm thirsty, if I kept thinking that the cup is half empty it will just make me feel even more thirstier. I guess it's a psychological thing but I have to admit it's damn true. Yes I'm pretty sure people always say there is ups and downs in life, sometimes I can't help but feel is it just me being jinx or bad luck that I often don't get things my way. But come to think about it, it's because I'm often whining and focusing on the bad side of not getting what I want. Just human nature of always not being contented with what one already have. When one bad thing happens, the world will end? Try think out of the box, optimism is what drives your enthusiasm and enthusiasm is what drives your performance. You could just D.I.Y, no need for whatsoever formula, just run a little positiveness through your brain and "WAHLA", you will see an open window. The world doesn't end when one window is closed, it's just a test of determination and make sure you pass it!


I certainly know it is easier said then done. But when this three are put together you may just thank me for revealing the 3 simple step to being successful!

p/s: this post is applied to me myself as well :

Skype Conference with my gurls!

Had a lovely skype conference session for the first time with my two besties, Evon and Esther. The last time three of us gathered together was mid of last year but now the three of us skyping from different location and time at once was just so amazing. Esther being in KL, Evon being in Scotland and me being in Melbourne having girl's heart to heart talk made me feel alive again. We gossiped, chat and laughed for about 2 hours. Obviously the most talked topic for the night was boys. particularly our boyfriends. as usual.

Totally enjoyed the skype session and looking forward to our next conference with more juicy updates...Teeeheeeeee :)


Looking back and I realised how time flies, this is a picture we took 3 years ago during our beach trip at Redang and now we're all over the world. How ironic ain't it. but one thing for sure is that friendship will definitely last forever!

Imaginary

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As they're falling tell a story

If you need to leave the world you live in
Lay your head down and stay a while
Though you may not remember dreaming
Something waits for you to breathe again

tulips

The budding tulips received on my birthday morning from meine schatz




the next day..blooming tulips





taking a final bow in awe of the beauty :)