What had happened to us? Why did we ended like this?
We used to grow up together, when I was 3 you were only 1, I can't remember any childhood memories without you, We used to bath together, sleep together, eat together, play together, study together, play pranks together, gossip together, create troubles together, travel together, We were almost inseparable.
It started all when you found out I was going to stuck with you for a long time.
Now,
We don't even greet when we meet, not even a simple Hi or a smile. The words you spoke to her is ten million times more than me. Am I a total stranger to you? Why did our sisterly relationship became so estranged.It felt damn awkward now just being in your presence. But one thing I'm sure is that beneath all these tension lies a million misunderstandings.
Just don't know how am I suppose to face you, I really didn't wish this to happen.
Someone tell me exactly what had happened.. please?
Sunday, January 31, 2010
And so the tasks begin
Friday was the last day working in Rentokil, can't imagine 2 months just passed by like that and now I have many things waiting me ahead. It was an emotional farewell with the dear colleagues there. They all treated me like their pet maybe because I was the youngest there and I am always being pampered by them. Hahaha.. I definitely would say that the company was one of the best I have worked for so far.
Moving on, I have so much to do this coming week, gathering with some old schoolmates, meeting up with friends, friend's birthday, helping out at my mum's shop, packing, shopping for my stuffs to bring to aussie etc. The list goes on! Thinking of it just makes my head spin. Anyways I will still take it easy, after all life is such a waste to spend on rushing right?
So I will pray Dear Lord please make this week ahead a smooth sailing one alright? Thank you Jesus, Amen!
Moving on, I have so much to do this coming week, gathering with some old schoolmates, meeting up with friends, friend's birthday, helping out at my mum's shop, packing, shopping for my stuffs to bring to aussie etc. The list goes on! Thinking of it just makes my head spin. Anyways I will still take it easy, after all life is such a waste to spend on rushing right?
So I will pray Dear Lord please make this week ahead a smooth sailing one alright? Thank you Jesus, Amen!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Burberry Brit Sheer
Finally I bought my love at first smell! Yes, it's the exclusive Burberry Brit Sheer. I didn't buy it at fist because it was too pricey 50 ml at RM 280. But lucky me, I happened to shop in Pavilion today and bumped into this exclusive travel collection which also included a body lotion. It was really a good deal at only RM 175! And not to mention it's limited too! Yay! :)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Incomplete
I have a little poem which I'd like to dedicate to all my friends regardless whether you are my childhood friend, high school friend, college friend, uni friend, church friend, ex colleague or just someone whom I have met at some random point of time. It goes..
the grey sky looming above,
rain drops still dripping down
from the pregnant clouds above,
we set out on our journey once again;
around and around we go
in slow circles, moving
to the beat of the thunder
and rain that surrounds us;
as the droplets hit the ground,
shattered realizations lay scattered
reminding me nothing is same
as it seems to be;
as another memory turns to dust
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past
and i shove it back into the depths
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
the rain does nothing to stop our journey,
never forgetting, who we are
we walk these streets of madness,
knowing that,without each-other…..
we are simply incomplete.
Personally, friends to me are parts and parcels which build up my life. Some friends are met up at the least expected way, some are just simply spontaneous, some are just by chance, some because of other intentions.
I always believe that every friend we meet plays an important role in every chapter of our lives. Although I remembered that I used to have a few childhood friends which grew up together with me but nowadays just a simple greet seem so reluctant and we even often try to avoid glances. Is this because we have all grown up and became too arrogant to reminisce back on those memories. Don't forget that important lessons were learnt from those childish moments.
Although I have lost all contact with my childhood as well as primary school friends. I hope that someday somewhere along the street maybe on the other side of the world when I bump into a familiar face, I can still bring up the courage to say a simple "Hello, my old friend" and relive those moments.
As for now, I shall cherish every friendship that exist around me and never repeat my mistakes again.
To Esther;
You have always been the cheerleader of my life. Regardless of whatever situation I get myself into, you'd always accept me for who I am and share this wonderful "life" with me.
To Christie;
You and I are special because we share the longest friendship since we were 13 and it never stop growing. I remember we picked each other up during the most dreadful moments in high school. Thanks for being my big sister, my playmate, my place to seek comfort in time of needs.
To TinChi;
I can't think of any moment without you which is not fun and excited! Your cheerfulness never let me down. The way we met is already a funny joke and I always enjoy your company and the wild things we do together.
To Sally;
Girl, at one moment people around us thought we were lesbian! Hahaha, but you and I both know we are even better than that. We learn and enjoy life so much together during uni years. Wished I had the courage to say Hi to you earlier. Thanks for always being so patient with me. Our girlie sessions are the most awesome experience in my life.
As for others, you and I both share a story that only we know and this will always be our little secret.
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Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. – Anaïs Nin
It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend his faults. So to love a man that you cannot bear to see a stain upon him, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship. – Henry Ward Beecher
In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends – Martin Luther King, jr.
In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend. ~Henry David Thoreau
the grey sky looming above,
rain drops still dripping down
from the pregnant clouds above,
we set out on our journey once again;
around and around we go
in slow circles, moving
to the beat of the thunder
and rain that surrounds us;
as the droplets hit the ground,
shattered realizations lay scattered
reminding me nothing is same
as it seems to be;
as another memory turns to dust
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past
and i shove it back into the depths
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
the rain does nothing to stop our journey,
never forgetting, who we are
we walk these streets of madness,
knowing that,without each-other…..
we are simply incomplete.
Personally, friends to me are parts and parcels which build up my life. Some friends are met up at the least expected way, some are just simply spontaneous, some are just by chance, some because of other intentions.
I always believe that every friend we meet plays an important role in every chapter of our lives. Although I remembered that I used to have a few childhood friends which grew up together with me but nowadays just a simple greet seem so reluctant and we even often try to avoid glances. Is this because we have all grown up and became too arrogant to reminisce back on those memories. Don't forget that important lessons were learnt from those childish moments.
Although I have lost all contact with my childhood as well as primary school friends. I hope that someday somewhere along the street maybe on the other side of the world when I bump into a familiar face, I can still bring up the courage to say a simple "Hello, my old friend" and relive those moments.
As for now, I shall cherish every friendship that exist around me and never repeat my mistakes again.
To Esther;
You have always been the cheerleader of my life. Regardless of whatever situation I get myself into, you'd always accept me for who I am and share this wonderful "life" with me.
To Christie;
You and I are special because we share the longest friendship since we were 13 and it never stop growing. I remember we picked each other up during the most dreadful moments in high school. Thanks for being my big sister, my playmate, my place to seek comfort in time of needs.
To TinChi;
I can't think of any moment without you which is not fun and excited! Your cheerfulness never let me down. The way we met is already a funny joke and I always enjoy your company and the wild things we do together.
To Sally;
Girl, at one moment people around us thought we were lesbian! Hahaha, but you and I both know we are even better than that. We learn and enjoy life so much together during uni years. Wished I had the courage to say Hi to you earlier. Thanks for always being so patient with me. Our girlie sessions are the most awesome experience in my life.
As for others, you and I both share a story that only we know and this will always be our little secret.
*************************************************************************************
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. – Anaïs Nin
It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend his faults. So to love a man that you cannot bear to see a stain upon him, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship. – Henry Ward Beecher
In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends – Martin Luther King, jr.
In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend. ~Henry David Thoreau
Monday, January 18, 2010
A Game Called L.O.V.E
Recently, one of my best friend just broke the news to me that her younger brother had just broken up with his girlfriend of one and a half years. She said he was totally devastated and locked himself in his room for days. After hearing that, first thing that came through my mind was. Yeah, just another puppy love gone bad story. I know that may sound mean but it's reality!
When we were kids, we used to read fairy tales and bed time stories where the endings are always, "......and so the price and the princess live happily after". And then when it comes to high school, we start having fantasies of dating the cutest guy in school and becoming the "popular couple in school". And then there goes the first love which started off so sweet but yet hurt so badly in the end.
At 22, I do consider myself to be a person who have seen alot, hear alot, and of cause personally experienced the many phases of relationships as well as the sweet and sour thing called love.
Love to me back then was just a simple theory whereby if you're happy you stay and if you're not you leave. Love to me now is something so powerful yet so complicated. It is something you may want so badly but yet at the time may fear so badly.
Our parents often advise us not to get into serious relationship unless we have a stable life. I never understand why they say things so discouraging like this but now that I have personally came across friends with relationship complications such as long distance relationship, third party affair, pre-marital sex relationship, one night stand, homosexual relationship etc. I'm starting to get the full picture of this dangerous game.
I know that I may not be someone in a position to comment too much about relationship failures because I was a failure myself. But looking on the bright side, there is often something good out of every failed relationship. One may learn to be stronger, braver, wiser and to appreciate every moment with friends and families. And as for me one of the best outcome was that I came to know the Lord Jesus Christ after a failed relationship of two and a half years. Thanks to my best friend, Esther who brought me to church after the whole breakup which left me hopeless and broken.
The Word of God says in Isaiah 53:4-5:
"Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed."
In conclusion, learn to love but yet at the same time learn to grow.
When we were kids, we used to read fairy tales and bed time stories where the endings are always, "......and so the price and the princess live happily after". And then when it comes to high school, we start having fantasies of dating the cutest guy in school and becoming the "popular couple in school". And then there goes the first love which started off so sweet but yet hurt so badly in the end.
At 22, I do consider myself to be a person who have seen alot, hear alot, and of cause personally experienced the many phases of relationships as well as the sweet and sour thing called love.
Love to me back then was just a simple theory whereby if you're happy you stay and if you're not you leave. Love to me now is something so powerful yet so complicated. It is something you may want so badly but yet at the time may fear so badly.
Our parents often advise us not to get into serious relationship unless we have a stable life. I never understand why they say things so discouraging like this but now that I have personally came across friends with relationship complications such as long distance relationship, third party affair, pre-marital sex relationship, one night stand, homosexual relationship etc. I'm starting to get the full picture of this dangerous game.
I know that I may not be someone in a position to comment too much about relationship failures because I was a failure myself. But looking on the bright side, there is often something good out of every failed relationship. One may learn to be stronger, braver, wiser and to appreciate every moment with friends and families. And as for me one of the best outcome was that I came to know the Lord Jesus Christ after a failed relationship of two and a half years. Thanks to my best friend, Esther who brought me to church after the whole breakup which left me hopeless and broken.
The Word of God says in Isaiah 53:4-5:
"Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed."
In conclusion, learn to love but yet at the same time learn to grow.
My days in KL are numbered...
By today I should have left approximately one month to my departure date. I don't know why but the excitment and the sadness has yet to hit me. I should be: Excited because I'm leaving home for the first time after 22 years. Sad because I'm leaving my comfort zone and my beloved family and friends. I am going to embark on this new journey alone at a foreign place with no certainty in the future.
I know this may sound weird but people around me are already getting excited ahead of me, with my mum and dad preparing the stuffs I would need to bring and use there. My friends are already planning for my farewell and briefing me with what I should expect there.
I hadn't even start packing! and I hadn't even prepare my check list. I hadn't meet my old schoolmates! I hadn't done alot of things! And time is already running out.
Hopefully by counting down the days, I can stir up this enthusiasm in me and take this opportunity as a blessing ;)
I know this may sound weird but people around me are already getting excited ahead of me, with my mum and dad preparing the stuffs I would need to bring and use there. My friends are already planning for my farewell and briefing me with what I should expect there.
I hadn't even start packing! and I hadn't even prepare my check list. I hadn't meet my old schoolmates! I hadn't done alot of things! And time is already running out.
Hopefully by counting down the days, I can stir up this enthusiasm in me and take this opportunity as a blessing ;)
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Chillout at Lookout Point
A long awaited Friday has finally come. Me and a few friends suddenly have this random suggestion to hang out at Lookout Point at Little Genting. But the problem here is we all don't know the way there and we didn't have any GPS with us at the time. We left my place at approximately 8pm and along the way we missed a couple of turns and overshot a couple of traffic lights plus the jam and pasar malam, we finally arrived at 10pm. With the travel time, I think we can arrive in Genting Highlands instead of this small Genting which is located at some Cheras residential area. Besides, we get to witness some bold moves and really "aggressive" driving skills of Ser Yoong. I have to admit I was really impressed.
Actually I had already been to LookOut Point once during Christmas with another bunch of friends. I found that place to be quite pleasant for a chillout session. Although the food wasn't nice but the ambience and view is good enough to keep us there for 2 hours. I was glad that Ser Yoong and Han Ming like that place. These city people don't even know where is LookOut Point.Ser Yoong even called it as "Sai Wan Deng" instead of "Siu Wan Deng" when we were asking for direction. Of cause, all his knows is just One U and The Curve.
We had Mediterranean food for our supposedly "dinner", I have to say the service is really bad as we waited for an hour for the food to be served. In the mean time, we tried out Shisha as well.
I'll be coming here again next week and this time it would be to celebrate another friend's birthday. Can't wait!
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