dark days

the sky is gloomy

the air is chilly.

i am feeling messy.

too much pressure on myself i guess.

can't seem to see the big picture.

i need a rational and relaxed mind

i need a holiday.

i hope i can find peace in myself soon!

living a life of lies

if i could choose i would never lie to people that i love in my life.

i would rather tell them the truth and let them see through me.

however, at time things aren't so simple as it seems.

one things lead to another. and it stirs up more complications.

how i wish the world is much simpler

would't it be a nicer place to be?

i feel good.

today is a good day:) i felt like a kind and good human being after so long.

it gave me a really satisfying sensation.

i met a dutch girl who was travelling in australia for a month. i was observing some street performers and she overheard my conversation and we chat casually for half an hour. she was telling me about her life and we exchanged point of views and gave each other contact and promise will go out for a drink before she leaves to perth.

it's amazing how bumping into a stranger on the street and bring so much difference to a normal and dull day..

second event was calling up my best friend who just broke up with her bf. I sensed that she needed someone to talk to and I was right, she cried to me on the phone and i had heart to heart talk with her. She felt relieved after the conversation and i felt so glad i could comfort her and for once i felt like a true friend and i just wanted to protect her from the hurt she is going through because i can understand her situation and her feelings.

She thanked me from the bottom of her heart and I felt so touched that she could seek solace in me even though we are so far apart.

Then I spent my evening accompanying Jerry to pass time and Carissa to get some stuffs although I was effing sick and wanted to just stay in bed.

Seriously I feel that I could be an angel because someone once said I have a big heart.

And I feel happy giving and sharing with people and friends who need me.

Obsession kills