Things I do during my free time...

Push Me Not!

About Me: "I hate people expecting me to do things their way and pressure me"

Effect: "I will DEFINITELY REBEL"

This just doesnt apply to my parents but also to my friends around me.

I am easy going at times and I will go mostly go with the flow. But once my receptor sense some assertions from the other party I will get annoyed and my defensive compulsive system will be alerted. In another words, I totally dislike being controlled or being told what to do when I know myself more than anyone else.

I understood that my parents had spent alot and sacrifice alot for sending me abroad to study and of cause they have high expectations in me but I sincerely hope that they can trust me that I am capable of handling myself and my studies well so stop instilling the sense of guilt in me that because of me they did this and did that, I am aware of all that OK?! I will try my best and I hope my motivation comes from my drive to sucess and not because of the guilt or expectation of another. Trust me this will not help at all in fact it may even cause me to do exactly the opposite! I'm pretty sure you all are wondering if I told this to my parents, well I hadnt have the courage to do so because maybe if I say so I will hurt their feelings which I will never wanna do. So I hope one day they will understand me, understand their daughter..

From the friends point of view, I prefer to keep a distance from those friends which are not really close to me. I really dislike it when they kept invading my privacy my personal life. If you are up to the level which I believe I can share that certain thing with you I will tell you without hesitation. So if you have intention to make progress in our friendship please first learn to respect my privacy. Don't make me "runaway" from you. Sorry if this sounded harsh but I always like to make my stand clear to avoid any further misunderstandings. (P/S: This applies to my friends of both sexes.)


- I can be the most down to earth person you have ever met in your entire life, BUT I can also be the most dreadful person you wish you have never met -

What's NEXT?

Alright, it's really time to get serious.
I have a series of workload stacking up and my mid sem tests are drawing near. I am still procastinating when I know I shouldnt. It really takes alot of determination to stay focus at what I need to do but I shall give it a shot. My aim is to get scholarship to fund me thru for the next 3 sems hopefully. I know God will walk with me in this tough period so I shall not fear of the devil which will tempt me from my studies.. lol. Good luck Elaine! - Every great success starts with a dream and ends with a vision -

Summary of Everyday Life in Melbourne

Ever curious about how my life works in Melbourne?
Ever heard about how people say life in Melbourne is so wild and fun? (for those who love clubbing and drinkings)
Ever heard about how people say life in Melbourne is so boring? (With all the shops and restaurants closes at 5pm)

Well, for me it really depends how each individual adapt to life here.

For me everyday has sort of been a routine. Just with abit of alteration depending on recent activities.

Sometimes I am out almost everyday and back home late and after a while you will feel abit sick of this kinda life and for the next few days you may just wanna stay home and be alone and chill.

Sometimes I just spend my days between uni and home and after a period you will feel so outcast and isolated from the outside world and start to feel depress that you are dying to go out and play.


So in conclusion its good to have a balance between the fun and solitary life.

But what I always look forward to is the video conference session with my parents. Don't know why whenever I am homesick or depress after a conference session with my parents everything seems okay. :)

Missing you loads dadddy and mummy!

Autumn Blues.

I was peeling the promegranate seed by seed after dinner and upon that realising that there is just so much hassle just to eat this fruit. And the worst part is it kinda stained my favourite white PJs and I couldnt wash the stain off. I am depressed and I decided to write this blog.

Is it just me or my mood overreacting....?

I have been feeling rather down since the cold weather started taking over for Autumn. I started to feel that all my emotions are highly volatile and deep inside I know that something is upsetting me.

I do have friends but that can't satisfy the emotional needs I am desperately seeking now. I miss home I miss Malaysia and most of all I miss my parents. It's almost 2 months I've been in Melbourne. Seriously, to me it felt like I've been here for 2 years. I know every streets in the city now, my social network expanded exponentially, apart from that what else? I still feel empty..

I have so much "shoutouts" inside me I cant even find someone I am closest with to share with here. Maybe the emptiness is because I havent truly find a friend here that I can speak my mind and heart out.. So many things I wish I can post it here but when will I have the courage to do so. Maybe one day....