What had happened to us? Why did we ended like this?
We used to grow up together, when I was 3 you were only 1, I can't remember any childhood memories without you, We used to bath together, sleep together, eat together, play together, study together, play pranks together, gossip together, create troubles together, travel together, We were almost inseparable.
It started all when you found out I was going to stuck with you for a long time.
Now,
We don't even greet when we meet, not even a simple Hi or a smile. The words you spoke to her is ten million times more than me. Am I a total stranger to you? Why did our sisterly relationship became so estranged.It felt damn awkward now just being in your presence. But one thing I'm sure is that beneath all these tension lies a million misunderstandings.
Just don't know how am I suppose to face you, I really didn't wish this to happen.
Someone tell me exactly what had happened.. please?
Sunday, January 31, 2010
And so the tasks begin
Friday was the last day working in Rentokil, can't imagine 2 months just passed by like that and now I have many things waiting me ahead. It was an emotional farewell with the dear colleagues there. They all treated me like their pet maybe because I was the youngest there and I am always being pampered by them. Hahaha.. I definitely would say that the company was one of the best I have worked for so far.
Moving on, I have so much to do this coming week, gathering with some old schoolmates, meeting up with friends, friend's birthday, helping out at my mum's shop, packing, shopping for my stuffs to bring to aussie etc. The list goes on! Thinking of it just makes my head spin. Anyways I will still take it easy, after all life is such a waste to spend on rushing right?
So I will pray Dear Lord please make this week ahead a smooth sailing one alright? Thank you Jesus, Amen!
Moving on, I have so much to do this coming week, gathering with some old schoolmates, meeting up with friends, friend's birthday, helping out at my mum's shop, packing, shopping for my stuffs to bring to aussie etc. The list goes on! Thinking of it just makes my head spin. Anyways I will still take it easy, after all life is such a waste to spend on rushing right?
So I will pray Dear Lord please make this week ahead a smooth sailing one alright? Thank you Jesus, Amen!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Burberry Brit Sheer
Finally I bought my love at first smell! Yes, it's the exclusive Burberry Brit Sheer. I didn't buy it at fist because it was too pricey 50 ml at RM 280. But lucky me, I happened to shop in Pavilion today and bumped into this exclusive travel collection which also included a body lotion. It was really a good deal at only RM 175! And not to mention it's limited too! Yay! :)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Incomplete
I have a little poem which I'd like to dedicate to all my friends regardless whether you are my childhood friend, high school friend, college friend, uni friend, church friend, ex colleague or just someone whom I have met at some random point of time. It goes..
the grey sky looming above,
rain drops still dripping down
from the pregnant clouds above,
we set out on our journey once again;
around and around we go
in slow circles, moving
to the beat of the thunder
and rain that surrounds us;
as the droplets hit the ground,
shattered realizations lay scattered
reminding me nothing is same
as it seems to be;
as another memory turns to dust
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past
and i shove it back into the depths
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
the rain does nothing to stop our journey,
never forgetting, who we are
we walk these streets of madness,
knowing that,without each-other…..
we are simply incomplete.
Personally, friends to me are parts and parcels which build up my life. Some friends are met up at the least expected way, some are just simply spontaneous, some are just by chance, some because of other intentions.
I always believe that every friend we meet plays an important role in every chapter of our lives. Although I remembered that I used to have a few childhood friends which grew up together with me but nowadays just a simple greet seem so reluctant and we even often try to avoid glances. Is this because we have all grown up and became too arrogant to reminisce back on those memories. Don't forget that important lessons were learnt from those childish moments.
Although I have lost all contact with my childhood as well as primary school friends. I hope that someday somewhere along the street maybe on the other side of the world when I bump into a familiar face, I can still bring up the courage to say a simple "Hello, my old friend" and relive those moments.
As for now, I shall cherish every friendship that exist around me and never repeat my mistakes again.
To Esther;
You have always been the cheerleader of my life. Regardless of whatever situation I get myself into, you'd always accept me for who I am and share this wonderful "life" with me.
To Christie;
You and I are special because we share the longest friendship since we were 13 and it never stop growing. I remember we picked each other up during the most dreadful moments in high school. Thanks for being my big sister, my playmate, my place to seek comfort in time of needs.
To TinChi;
I can't think of any moment without you which is not fun and excited! Your cheerfulness never let me down. The way we met is already a funny joke and I always enjoy your company and the wild things we do together.
To Sally;
Girl, at one moment people around us thought we were lesbian! Hahaha, but you and I both know we are even better than that. We learn and enjoy life so much together during uni years. Wished I had the courage to say Hi to you earlier. Thanks for always being so patient with me. Our girlie sessions are the most awesome experience in my life.
As for others, you and I both share a story that only we know and this will always be our little secret.
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Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. – Anaïs Nin
It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend his faults. So to love a man that you cannot bear to see a stain upon him, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship. – Henry Ward Beecher
In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends – Martin Luther King, jr.
In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend. ~Henry David Thoreau
the grey sky looming above,
rain drops still dripping down
from the pregnant clouds above,
we set out on our journey once again;
around and around we go
in slow circles, moving
to the beat of the thunder
and rain that surrounds us;
as the droplets hit the ground,
shattered realizations lay scattered
reminding me nothing is same
as it seems to be;
as another memory turns to dust
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past
and i shove it back into the depths
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;
the rain does nothing to stop our journey,
never forgetting, who we are
we walk these streets of madness,
knowing that,without each-other…..
we are simply incomplete.
Personally, friends to me are parts and parcels which build up my life. Some friends are met up at the least expected way, some are just simply spontaneous, some are just by chance, some because of other intentions.
I always believe that every friend we meet plays an important role in every chapter of our lives. Although I remembered that I used to have a few childhood friends which grew up together with me but nowadays just a simple greet seem so reluctant and we even often try to avoid glances. Is this because we have all grown up and became too arrogant to reminisce back on those memories. Don't forget that important lessons were learnt from those childish moments.
Although I have lost all contact with my childhood as well as primary school friends. I hope that someday somewhere along the street maybe on the other side of the world when I bump into a familiar face, I can still bring up the courage to say a simple "Hello, my old friend" and relive those moments.
As for now, I shall cherish every friendship that exist around me and never repeat my mistakes again.
To Esther;
You have always been the cheerleader of my life. Regardless of whatever situation I get myself into, you'd always accept me for who I am and share this wonderful "life" with me.
To Christie;
You and I are special because we share the longest friendship since we were 13 and it never stop growing. I remember we picked each other up during the most dreadful moments in high school. Thanks for being my big sister, my playmate, my place to seek comfort in time of needs.
To TinChi;
I can't think of any moment without you which is not fun and excited! Your cheerfulness never let me down. The way we met is already a funny joke and I always enjoy your company and the wild things we do together.
To Sally;
Girl, at one moment people around us thought we were lesbian! Hahaha, but you and I both know we are even better than that. We learn and enjoy life so much together during uni years. Wished I had the courage to say Hi to you earlier. Thanks for always being so patient with me. Our girlie sessions are the most awesome experience in my life.
As for others, you and I both share a story that only we know and this will always be our little secret.
*************************************************************************************
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. – Anaïs Nin
It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend his faults. So to love a man that you cannot bear to see a stain upon him, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship. – Henry Ward Beecher
In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends – Martin Luther King, jr.
In everyone’s life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend. ~Henry David Thoreau
Monday, January 18, 2010
A Game Called L.O.V.E
Recently, one of my best friend just broke the news to me that her younger brother had just broken up with his girlfriend of one and a half years. She said he was totally devastated and locked himself in his room for days. After hearing that, first thing that came through my mind was. Yeah, just another puppy love gone bad story. I know that may sound mean but it's reality!
When we were kids, we used to read fairy tales and bed time stories where the endings are always, "......and so the price and the princess live happily after". And then when it comes to high school, we start having fantasies of dating the cutest guy in school and becoming the "popular couple in school". And then there goes the first love which started off so sweet but yet hurt so badly in the end.
At 22, I do consider myself to be a person who have seen alot, hear alot, and of cause personally experienced the many phases of relationships as well as the sweet and sour thing called love.
Love to me back then was just a simple theory whereby if you're happy you stay and if you're not you leave. Love to me now is something so powerful yet so complicated. It is something you may want so badly but yet at the time may fear so badly.
Our parents often advise us not to get into serious relationship unless we have a stable life. I never understand why they say things so discouraging like this but now that I have personally came across friends with relationship complications such as long distance relationship, third party affair, pre-marital sex relationship, one night stand, homosexual relationship etc. I'm starting to get the full picture of this dangerous game.
I know that I may not be someone in a position to comment too much about relationship failures because I was a failure myself. But looking on the bright side, there is often something good out of every failed relationship. One may learn to be stronger, braver, wiser and to appreciate every moment with friends and families. And as for me one of the best outcome was that I came to know the Lord Jesus Christ after a failed relationship of two and a half years. Thanks to my best friend, Esther who brought me to church after the whole breakup which left me hopeless and broken.
The Word of God says in Isaiah 53:4-5:
"Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed."
In conclusion, learn to love but yet at the same time learn to grow.
When we were kids, we used to read fairy tales and bed time stories where the endings are always, "......and so the price and the princess live happily after". And then when it comes to high school, we start having fantasies of dating the cutest guy in school and becoming the "popular couple in school". And then there goes the first love which started off so sweet but yet hurt so badly in the end.
At 22, I do consider myself to be a person who have seen alot, hear alot, and of cause personally experienced the many phases of relationships as well as the sweet and sour thing called love.
Love to me back then was just a simple theory whereby if you're happy you stay and if you're not you leave. Love to me now is something so powerful yet so complicated. It is something you may want so badly but yet at the time may fear so badly.
Our parents often advise us not to get into serious relationship unless we have a stable life. I never understand why they say things so discouraging like this but now that I have personally came across friends with relationship complications such as long distance relationship, third party affair, pre-marital sex relationship, one night stand, homosexual relationship etc. I'm starting to get the full picture of this dangerous game.
I know that I may not be someone in a position to comment too much about relationship failures because I was a failure myself. But looking on the bright side, there is often something good out of every failed relationship. One may learn to be stronger, braver, wiser and to appreciate every moment with friends and families. And as for me one of the best outcome was that I came to know the Lord Jesus Christ after a failed relationship of two and a half years. Thanks to my best friend, Esther who brought me to church after the whole breakup which left me hopeless and broken.
The Word of God says in Isaiah 53:4-5:
"Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed."
In conclusion, learn to love but yet at the same time learn to grow.
My days in KL are numbered...
By today I should have left approximately one month to my departure date. I don't know why but the excitment and the sadness has yet to hit me. I should be: Excited because I'm leaving home for the first time after 22 years. Sad because I'm leaving my comfort zone and my beloved family and friends. I am going to embark on this new journey alone at a foreign place with no certainty in the future.
I know this may sound weird but people around me are already getting excited ahead of me, with my mum and dad preparing the stuffs I would need to bring and use there. My friends are already planning for my farewell and briefing me with what I should expect there.
I hadn't even start packing! and I hadn't even prepare my check list. I hadn't meet my old schoolmates! I hadn't done alot of things! And time is already running out.
Hopefully by counting down the days, I can stir up this enthusiasm in me and take this opportunity as a blessing ;)
I know this may sound weird but people around me are already getting excited ahead of me, with my mum and dad preparing the stuffs I would need to bring and use there. My friends are already planning for my farewell and briefing me with what I should expect there.
I hadn't even start packing! and I hadn't even prepare my check list. I hadn't meet my old schoolmates! I hadn't done alot of things! And time is already running out.
Hopefully by counting down the days, I can stir up this enthusiasm in me and take this opportunity as a blessing ;)
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Chillout at Lookout Point
A long awaited Friday has finally come. Me and a few friends suddenly have this random suggestion to hang out at Lookout Point at Little Genting. But the problem here is we all don't know the way there and we didn't have any GPS with us at the time. We left my place at approximately 8pm and along the way we missed a couple of turns and overshot a couple of traffic lights plus the jam and pasar malam, we finally arrived at 10pm. With the travel time, I think we can arrive in Genting Highlands instead of this small Genting which is located at some Cheras residential area. Besides, we get to witness some bold moves and really "aggressive" driving skills of Ser Yoong. I have to admit I was really impressed.
Actually I had already been to LookOut Point once during Christmas with another bunch of friends. I found that place to be quite pleasant for a chillout session. Although the food wasn't nice but the ambience and view is good enough to keep us there for 2 hours. I was glad that Ser Yoong and Han Ming like that place. These city people don't even know where is LookOut Point.Ser Yoong even called it as "Sai Wan Deng" instead of "Siu Wan Deng" when we were asking for direction. Of cause, all his knows is just One U and The Curve.
We had Mediterranean food for our supposedly "dinner", I have to say the service is really bad as we waited for an hour for the food to be served. In the mean time, we tried out Shisha as well.
I'll be coming here again next week and this time it would be to celebrate another friend's birthday. Can't wait!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Short Hello, Long Goodbye
Today, we celebrated the farewell of our dear colleague, Melissa. I have only known her for one and a half months, but it seems like forever. It's amazing how daily interaction can bond strangers so quickly. I remembered during the first day of work, I was just like any newcomers who didn't dare make any eye contact with the other staffs. But Melissa was the first to approach me and made me felt welcomed in this hostile new place. I also enjoy her jokes and lessons about life. I could see she is a warm loving lady who places emotional needs ahead of anything else in life. Sadly our intersections in life have to end here,maybe someday somewhere we will meet again and when we do, I will always remember the lady who first said a Short Hello and Long Goodbye.
I will upload the pictures of our last moments together once I get a hand on it.
It's getting late and my biological clock is ticking me to bed. Goodnight everyone.
I will upload the pictures of our last moments together once I get a hand on it.
It's getting late and my biological clock is ticking me to bed. Goodnight everyone.
A Wise Man Said
Dr. Albert Schweitzer:
An optimist is a person who sees a green light everywhere. The pessimist sees only the red light. But the truly wise person is color blind.
We probably hear quotes like this everyday. We even use them to comfort friends or family in despair. But do we really apply them to ourselves? I'm pretty sure everyone of us have our own downturns in life but we have no choice but to bounce back on our feet and move on, and for one simple reason "This Is Life".
Honestly, I consider myself a pessimist. I don't really remember since when I started being one or was it even born in me? But hey! who am I to say that. I believe God made us perfect in His image as in Genesis Chapter 1 and when we were born as babies we were flawless both spiritually and mentally.
Thinking back, it was 12 th of November 2009, I was sitting for my third final semester paper, Accounting Theory. This paper was known to be the "killer paper" for all third year students. I vividly remembered I have been revising one month for this paper and with that in mind I was fully confident that I could make it through easily. During the exams, I totally blanked out and the first thing which came through my mind was " Oh Gosh, I'm gonna fail this paper!". At that moment, I just felt like storming out of the exam hall and cry. I felt like I was drowning in my own fear. Negative thoughts start pouring in and I could hear "voices" saying, "You will have to stay for another semester and you're not gonna make it to Aussie". At that moment, all my hopes and dreams just crushed. In a desperate attempt, I prayed and I prayed asking God to give me the strength to fight these negativity and calm my mind. And trust me. God never fails. I held on strong to my faith that God provides, I regained my confidence and tried my best to finish the paper. And of cause, I made it through.
One important lesson learnt is that we can never underestimate the power of our mind. Just like the simple theory of whether one sees a cup half full or half empty. So beware and don't fall prey to the tricky mind it is a being of its own and it knows you inside out and the only way to conquer it is through your will power.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Time's Up
If today would be the last day I'd be living on planet Earth, the one thing that I would regret most not doing is definitely gotta be missing out on watching Avatar. Alright, maybe I exaggerated abit too much. Well at least I don't wanna be the last person to die not watching the movie which was said to beat major blockbuster movies like Titanic and Transformer etc. Besides, it's really awkward when you're out with your friends and colleagues and everyone starts talking about how great the movie was and you are totally clueless about it.As a last resort, I even thought of getting the DVD but to my surprise it's SOLD OUT! Have you ever heard of pirated DVD being sold out?!
Well, time's up. I'm done with work and carrying with me this high expectation, this movie better not disappoint me!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
El inicio (The Begining)
Welcome to the fist blog I have created. I am totally clueless as to how this whole thingy-mchigy works but I'm pretty sure I'll get a hand out of it in prolly a few weeks?
Anyways what was I even thinking when I've decided to make this blog! I used to anti all this blogging, twitting and anything that have to do with revealing your personal life when people are dying for privacy here eg: any celeberties. Well, guess I have to pass out the credit to a friend whom I chat with today morning at work. Yes, his name is Gabriel. Long story cut short, I have to admit Gabriel's blog was really something to have prompted me to make this move.
Alright, I guess its time to start working on those settings and layout to vibe out my story.my life.
Happy blogging to mua! :)
Anyways what was I even thinking when I've decided to make this blog! I used to anti all this blogging, twitting and anything that have to do with revealing your personal life when people are dying for privacy here eg: any celeberties. Well, guess I have to pass out the credit to a friend whom I chat with today morning at work. Yes, his name is Gabriel. Long story cut short, I have to admit Gabriel's blog was really something to have prompted me to make this move.
Alright, I guess its time to start working on those settings and layout to vibe out my story.my life.
Happy blogging to mua! :)
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